I’ve been increasingly drawn to the original Judaic back-stories and socio-economic-cultural contexts, while desperately wanting to unpack some of the things I read in the Bible. I keep going back to Messianic traditions, their relevance, and deeper meanings juxtaposed within the contexts of modern life and Ancient Wisdom. In other words, I know there is so much more than what is obvious.
One of the first impressions that a musical/broadway type film ever made on me was The fiddler on the roof – the song that Tevye sings about what he would do if he were a rich man. He mentions all the obvious things that most of us would want to do…and then towards the end of the song, with true feeling and a surprising depth of emotion, in a sudden departure from everything worldly, he sings that he’d have the time to finally sit in the synagogue and pray to his heart’s content…and discuss the learned books with holy men. the learned books here being the Torah and the Tanakh. Even as a child growing up in a Godless, semi-atheist/agnostic household, I never could shake that line off…I kept seeing Tevye’s longing etched in the lines of his dirty face and wondered why there was such an attraction to God and the Holy Book. Now as an adult, I understand why he didn’t have the time. Back then, I tried other religions and texts, but nothing satisfied…and when I became a committed Christian, I understood the longing. I am still not very good at sitting down and resting in God or conversing with Him on a regular basis. But I am growing…and learning. Back to the Bible, I continue to be drawn to the Old Testament to understand the nature of God and Jesus and therefore my place in Him.
…this turned out longer than I intended…but I will leave it be…perhaps someone will benefit from my thoughts. The reason I started this post was because I found this video, a Parsha, explaining one of the stories that I have wondered about. I’ve read and heard preaching that confirms that the reason Eliezer’s account is written twice is because it is important. And readers of the Bible know that anytime there is a repetition of a word, phrase or verse in the Bible, it is worth deeper study. I wasn’t looking to understand this story at this time…I was actually trying to understand Ruth & Boaz…and trying to understand my own issues and problems in romantic relationships, dating the wrong men, marrying the seemingly right man, and then wanting a relationship, but being afraid of everything it entails…(overshare, I know. Shush already! and NO! I am not dating or ready to date!!). But my story isn’t unique…and I know that this season of my life is a season of latency (Freudian latency? Perhaps my adult acne is indicative of my impending adolescence? jk!)…where nothing seems to be happening, but a lot is happening. So then, my personal question has been about this ‘journey’ that I am on. God had brought Moses to mind..and then Samuel…Jeremiah. People in the Old Testament who made seemingly redundant and extremely arduous journeys into the wilderness and back into civilization. Journeys which left them panting and exhausted, depleted and broken….and yet, generations together benefited from their commitment and obedience to God. Those have been difficult lessons for me, inspiring, encouraging, but still….difficult. There is no glamor in the prison for Joseph, right?!
Anyway, this time, while studying about Ruth and her obedience, God brought back Eliezer into the picture. And with that Rebekkah came. In a flash, I saw my grandmother, my mother, myself and my daughter…some mantles are hard to explain. With so much focus on generational curses and entanglements, we forget that there are generational mantles and character traits that God in all His zealousness guards for Himself. He doesn’t allow anything to come against these traits, behaviors, and beliefs…and sometimes even when we engage in self-destructive behaviors, He ensures that the very core of who we are is protected. Of course, this cannot be generalized. But perhaps if you look within, you can identify some traits as well. Hardwired into the DNA, even if we run from some of these Godly traits…and make our beds in hell, behold! He is there! (Ps 139:8).
Be blessed and encouraged! Whatever you are waiting for…your Eliezer is on His way to find you. And while you are waiting, think on this – Whose daughter are you?